The first chapter was the best , it was moving , relatable and overwhelmingly emotional with full of potential . But Iater on it became so frustrating to read it , the weakness of mc was unbelievably painful for me . I waited but yhe story didnt portray her weakness as wrong thing but just weakness . Ofcourse people are there with a similar level of weakness and even the mjsfortune which is also why i saw so much potential and wanted the message to be clear . Characters and all good even the mc but develop it the way a way thats lacking the most crucial part .

The story is about running from darkness , rather than finding a light . Yes she did found light but it was inside the story of running . The way she handle her first painful experiece to the way she handles actual danger has a philosophical flaw which is never pointed out. She still to the end never was able to realize humans are mostly stupid to point of harming us and people that are hard to keep up with can be removed from her priortise , like for example she didnt need curry favor from her classmates that are known to be worse . We can put aside what she cpulgve done , but the way she perceives and think . She groups her best friend and a picture of an ideal friend into the same category as the trash bullies , the worse shitty dudes and classmate that she has to smile to , and bear pain for . She's not offensive in mindset even with sexual assaults (defenseive sometimes though) , she runs from darkness but towards poison and chase after it but never able to chase after any of the lights in front of her .

Lastly it was painful becuz its beautiful , the drama is good . Short i love what the writer create but hate how he thinks . If only she was portrayed to chase after the actual thing she should've at some point .